Blessing Vs. Curse?

Sometimes I think I've got it all figured out
But when I'm asleep my dreams try to tell me
something I don't understand
I dream about you, not being so far away
I can almost feel the touch of your hand
I need to find a way to let you go
I can't let the memories be in charge of me
I can't let that happen
But what am I missing, what can't I see?
Do I need answers to questions I simply can't ask?
Do I need some sort of closure to move on?
Once again I have to go through it all
everything that went wrong
Like always you break down my wall
And yet again I have to take the fall
It's like you're a leech sucking the life of me
It's like I can't breathe without you inside of me
I have to get rid of the picture in the purse
Because what I thought was a blessing
turned out to be a curse.